I have been absolutely, unequivocally, mind-bogglingly overcome with love lately. Regardless of where I am in my life - physically, geographically or emotionally - it finds me. At work, driving home, sitting on the couch reading - it will gently roll up onto me and suddenly I'm filled with all-out kick ass Love. Love! Nothing... Continue Reading →
The Mosh Pit
My first mosh pit experience was shared with one of the Sunlin twins - he came up behind me, told me to relax, then put his arm around my waist and took me in. We were at a concert at the State Theater in Kalamazoo, Michigan. It was winter, and in winter the youth of... Continue Reading →
Serious Drinker
I have never been a serious drinker. Even now, I have a small, private feeling of pride that my go-to drink has become a jack & coke, with lime - a drink I converted to from my standard vodka & tonic after tasting it in the kisses of my lover during so many nights out, the smoky whiskey mixing... Continue Reading →
I Wrote a Will.
I have this neighbor. I like her. I think she's cool and she does interesting things that I'd like to know how to do, but I'm shy so instead of asking her how, I just get drunk and then text her about...I don't even know. She's very patient. One night we invited she and her... Continue Reading →
It Seemed Like a Good Idea at the Time
I was 19 when I got my tattoo. When I talk about it now, or forget that it’s there and someone sees it and asks, I laugh and say “well, it seemed like a good idea at the time.” The problem is, I don’t remember what the idea behind it was. I only have the... Continue Reading →
My Power Friend
Today is my birthday. As usual, I received a large box from my oldest and dearest friend, Jessica. In it, I found a wrapped gift with this disclaimer: About a year ago, Paulie and I broke up. Shortly after, I had a vivid and powerful dream about an elephant and Paulie. Rather than try to... Continue Reading →
The Enabler
My boyfriend walked into the kitchen as I was beginning to sort dishes and said "okay mom, the kids are going to be entertained for the next 15 minutes or so." I shuffled some plates around and put a couple of glasses on top. "Now's your chance to have some time to yourself." "Okaaaay" I... Continue Reading →
Tommy Boy
I found this picture of Tom today. That’s the risk you take when pulling out old dusty boxes of photographs in search of something completely different. If you’re superstitious about throwing away pictures, you’re bound to eventually find one that catches you off guard. We met at one of those dark winter parties where everyone... Continue Reading →
What I did when I was all alone
With a whole weekend to myself, you may recall that I had some pretty big plans. If you don't feel like clicking that link to see what those plans were, here is a numbered comparison of my vision versus my reality: 1. What I planned on doing: Masturbating. What I ended up doing: Folding laundry.... Continue Reading →
Pour Some Sugar on Me
I awoke on day one of Amanda’s Weekend Alone to find there was no sugar in the house. This wasn’t a surprise - we’d run out two days before, and Nina Simone’s “I Want a Little Sugar in my Bowl” has been on a constant loop in my head ever since. On the first morning... Continue Reading →
Amanda Janik 